This week has been a challenging one. It has also been a real eye opener. I have had my struggles this week with money, people and myself. When things look bleek it’s hard to imagine what my life holds for me. It’s hard to believe that I will have a big house, drive a Ferrari and take vacations with my family around the world. Whats really hard is when I look in the mirror and tell myself that I created this. I was the cause. Now it wasn’t to be self punishing, not at all! I had to understand that I still do not have complete control over my thoughts. I need to work on my focus. I look back at the last 18 weeks and I see that there is growth. Chapter 18 was a tough one to understand, I did not fully get it. But what I did get from this week has been amazing! I found out that there are other that will try to steal your power. People who see you as a threat. This happened to me this week on Friday. I was angry, really angry because I have worked very hard on myself and always helping others to do better. I stewed about what he said to me for hours getting more and more angry. I thought about GS scroll 5, ” I Will Live This Day As If It My Last”
I will live this day as if it is my last.
And what then shall I do? Forgetting yesterday neither will I think of tomorrow. Why
should I throw now after maybe? Can tomorrow’s sand flow through the glass before
today’s? Will the sun rise twice this morning? Can I perform tomorrow’s deeds while
standing in today’s path? Can I place tomorrow’s gold in today’s purse? Can
tomorrow’s child be born today? Can tomorrow’s death cast its shadow backward
and darken today’s joy? Should I concern myself over events, which I may never
witness? Should I torment myself with problems that may never come to pass? No!
Tomorrow lies buried with yesterday, and I will think of it no more.
I have been concentrating on tomorrow instead of today and what I can do today to make my tomorrows. Back to the Cause and Effect. Because of this I am grateful for the struggles this week. I am more focused and feel so excited about the things to come in the next months and years ahead.
-Keep Moving Forward