This week was really good. I followed the plan 95% of the time. Yes, I missed a few reads throughout the week. My week starts on Monday so I still have two days left to go. Week 4 is going to be interesting and exciting. I feel better and ideas are flowing better. I feel more confident and happier. I am a yeller, just ask my kids! The last week has been less about yelling and more about talking.
Soul Searching my DMP.
The beginning of the week I was reading my first rewrite of my DMP. It felt very hard to believe in what I was saying
“I am reading my DMP out loud with feeling, but what I get in the first part is a gut feeling of lack. Not realy sure how to explain it, I don’t feel a huge amount of self confidence when I read it. But as I get through the half way point everything switches around and I get the joy and happiness and excitement.”
Then I got the reply back from Mark and Davene. Both responses were eye openers.
Mark said –“Notice! Are you setting yourself up for doubt [mental habit] before you even read? [I sure did!] Here is the important part >> :::::> embrace the conflict and affirm it as a discovery!”
Davene said –“I clearly see your PPNs great job. I wonder if there is anything personal you’d like add and you need to add emotions if you don’t attach emotions to these achievements your subby won’t get to work.”
So with both in mind I was doing some soul searching. What or Why was I feeling this way?
Boom! Then it hit like a ton of bricks. The first part of my DMP is not my full passion. It’s the vehicle to get to my passion! That is what I needed. The realization that my DMP needed the description of that and the feeling was so positive. I felt so much more in harmony and happier when reading it. the feeling of doubt almost fully disappeared and I could read it with FEELING and I could BELIEVE it.
So in week three I found a little more depth, all little more belief and a change in habits. The intro the chapter 3 gives me the best description of my changes this week..
You have found that the Individual may act on the Universal, and that the result of this action and interaction is cause and effect. Thought, therefore, is the cause, and the experiences with which you meet in life are the effect. Eliminate, therefore, any possible tendency to complain of conditions as they have been, or as they are, because it rests with you to change them and make them what you would like them to be.
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